Rant on my Life

Alright, since nothing is going on currently in my life besides day after day of summer camps (woo!) I thought I'd rant about something, though in the stupidest ways, I'm slowly starting to realize. And you (non-existant readers) get the oppurtunity to read, if you want, this nonsense which currently has been bothering me.

So, we all have friends, that's extremely well known. Everyone has atleast ONE friend whether it be an animal, family member, someone you know, whatever, friends are easy to come by now-a-days. Everyone also has, more or less, a best friend, one who they can rely entirely, every secret, within this person. When you have someone like this, it's amazing. Nothing can stop you, happy, sad, angry, any emotion, thick and thin, this person will help you. We've all had these people throughout our lives. These people are, mostly, the people that keep us sane. What I've realized more and more lately is that, all these people who used to keep me sane, these people that are my rocks, are just, gone. Not there anymore, at least for me. I have friends, of course I do, I'm an extremely likeable person (not to toot my own horn,) but, there is no one in my life, who, is my best friend.

Summer is shooting by like a rocket, and soon I'll be in grade 10 and I keep thinking to myself, how did something like this ever even happen. I just don't know. I look back on my Grade 9 year and just think, wow. Not a sarcastic wow. A serious one. But, somewhere along this road of freshman/grade 9 year. The highlight of my year was theatre! Of course it was, it's my passion. Every day was about theatre. Maybe that was my downfall. Of course, with performance course (after-school theatre course) and improv, I had my cast, my friends, but, these are the only people who I bonded of, most, not even of my age. Not that I don't mind the age difference at all. But, everytime I didn't have something at lunch, I found myself in the awkward situation in the cafeteria thinking, 'Where the hell do I sit?' or 'Where do I fit in?' with a lack of my rock, again, I just don't know.

Improv, Annie, Performance course ended, I was lost. It was my hard semester and just honestly I didn't even know what to do. I actually find myself to be online more and more these days, which I really, really, really hate. Not that I don't love being online, in fact, I love it, the internet is amazing, but, I find myself making new friends online, and I love them, I do, they're all great people, but, I don't find myself invited anywhere anymore. I even find myself detaching from those who I talk to online. I really don't even know what to do anymore. All friends I once had have moved on in one way or another and I'm just here, lost.

Now, on to how I came about my stupid realizations. The other week, I saw Toy Story 3. Amazing movie, but, the thing I realized. I'm getting older now, life's moving quicker than it's supposed to be. Grade 10? 15 years old? Soon I'll be driving a car. Soon I'll be off to college or university, soon, I'll be out in the big world with no one but myself to rely on. If the next 3 years of high school go as fast as this year did. I might have a heart attack from freaking out. Anyways, after Toy Story I walked through my room, looked at some of my old toys and realized, that I'm growing older, and I don't like it.

That's my current rant, and I'm glad to get it out, even if to no one.

- Sam.

Almost Two Months Since A Post?

Where to begin, it's been about 2 months since my last post and there is A LOT of things that hage happened. Love (Kind of), hanging out, school, exams, report cards, texting, grounding, video games, summer, camps.

Well, that sums it up really.

Have a nice week non-existant readers,
Sam